When and Why?

I created this in July 2 years ago. I was too anxious that even a well-

known artist friend of mine told me not to judge my own art, just 

let others feel it, I still gave a damn on others' minds. People who 

truly understand me always advised me not to be too hard on 

myself, and yet I wasn't prepared for looking at myself in a way 

that my beloved others see me. After my visit to Depot Boijmans 

realizing that things deteriorate real quick... so before this largest 

artwork of mine dries out/ is gradually affected by humidity, I 

wanna give myself the greatest thing, i.e. freedom from what 

others think. I share this to express.

What? 

Emotions need not be all breakdown. It may also be breakthrough. 

By tuning in to my facial expressions that are linked to 7 basic 

emotions - contempt, fear, happiness, surprise, disgust, sadness - 

their ubiquity allows myself a deeper, richer experience in every 

part of my life. I used to think I can selectively block emotion, and 

dampen down disturbing or uncomfortable feelings, but when I 

repress some of my emotions, I inevitably turn down the volume 

of all my emotions, denying myself access to the whole of my 

nature. 

How? 

Your new life will cost your old you. Therefore, to love myself openly 

and unconditionally, I UNLEARN my past experience with 

remembrance, and LEARN to trust my future with longing. By always 

remaining open to everything that occurs, rather than labelling my 

arising emotions as “good” or “bad”, I accept all parts of myself. With 

this knowledge, I now choose to release all barriers to love and 

embrace myself with colours - as reflected in this largest artwork of 

mine. Happy face is great, but we also need to accept our “negative” 

feelings instead of avoiding or repressing them. Rainbow comprises 

of 7 colours; we should also accept all forms of experiences that 

keep our mental and physical senses in a state of balance and ease.