When and Why?

I created this in July 2 years ago. I was too anxious that even a well-

known artist friend of mine told me not to judge my own art, just

let others feel it, I still gave a damn on others' minds. People who

truly understand me always advised me not to be too hard on

myself, and yet I wasn't prepared for looking at myself in a way

that my beloved others see me. After my visit to Depot Boijmans

realizing that things deteriorate real quick... so before this largest

artwork of mine dries out/ is gradually affected by humidity, I

wanna give myself the greatest thing, i.e. freedom from what

others think. I share this to express.

What?

Emotions need not be all breakdown. It may also be breakthrough.

By tuning in to my facial expressions that are linked to 7 basic

emotions - contempt, fear, happiness, surprise, disgust, sadness -

their ubiquity allows myself a deeper, richer experience in every

part of my life. I used to think I can selectively block emotion, and

dampen down disturbing or uncomfortable feelings, but when I

repress some of my emotions, I inevitably turn down the volume

of all my emotions, denying myself access to the whole of my

nature.

How?

Your new life will cost your old you. Therefore, to love myself openly

and unconditionally, I UNLEARN my past experience with

remembrance, and LEARN to trust my future with longing. By always

remaining open to everything that occurs, rather than labelling my

arising emotions as “good” or “bad”, I accept all parts of myself. With

this knowledge, I now choose to release all barriers to love and

embrace myself with colours - as reflected in this largest artwork of

mine. Happy face is great, but we also need to accept our “negative”

feelings instead of avoiding or repressing them. Rainbow comprises

of 7 colours; we should also accept all forms of experiences that

keep our mental and physical senses in a state of balance and ease.