When and Why?
I created this in July 2 years ago. I was too anxious that even a well-known artist friend of mine told me not to judge my own art, just let others feel it, I still gave a damn on others' minds. People who truly understand me always advised me not to be too hard on myself, and yet I wasn't prepared for looking at myself in a way that my beloved others see me. After my visit to Depot Boijmans realizing that things deteriorate real quick... so before this largest artwork of mine dries out/ is gradually affected by humidity, I wanna give myself the greatest thing, i.e. freedom from what others think. I share this to express.
What?
Emotions need not be all breakdown. It may also be breakthrough.
By tuning in to my facial expressions that are linked to 7 basic emotions - contempt, fear, happiness, surprise, disgust, sadness - their ubiquity allows myself a deeper, richer experience in every part of my life. I used to think I can selectively block emotion, and
dampen down disturbing or uncomfortable feelings, but when I repress some of my emotions, I inevitably turn down the volume of all my emotions, denying myself access to the whole of my
nature.
How?
Your new life will cost your old you. Therefore, to love myself openly and unconditionally, I UNLEARN my past experience with remembrance, and LEARN to trust my future with longing. By always remaining open to everything that occurs, rather than labelling my
arising emotions as “good” or “bad”, I accept all parts of myself. With this knowledge, I now choose to release all barriers to love and embrace myself with colours - as reflected in this largest artwork of mine. Happy face is great, but we also need to accept our “negative” feelings instead of avoiding or repressing them. Rainbow comprises of 7 colours; we should also accept all forms of experiences that keep our mental and physical senses in a state of balance and ease.