Black text: don't live so tired of yourself because not so many people care about you. Don't underestimate yourself either, if I could I would like to stop, but know that being a human being life passes quickly. If you don't understand, then you will continue to work yourself to death, you should know how troublesome it will be. I want to get well, otherwise it will be very troublesome.
Alfred Adler believe when I feel I am valuable, I have value, then I will have courage. Only when I have committed something that is valuable to my common grounds, then I will feel I have value and thus courage. After that I start to feel that as other people can do it and face hardship, I can face hardship alone as well. I will start to have faith and the energy to combat difficulty. Because bravery means I feel myself capable and valuable. I feel that I am valued, and I am courageous to my common ground. I feel I can tackle my anxiety problem independently. I feel I am valuable to other people
Orange text: Those who have courage have success. Those who lack courage will only fall further and further. Those who have courage are successful and carefree.
Red text: It doesn't matter if you can't get out of it for the rest of your life, because it's meant to be. Maybe God will give you an answer one day and make you understand why you have to be so tired and tortured more than others. You've been through a lot of ups and downs and you will finally have someone to protect you, to love you, to understand that what you need is not a thing, but a sense of security.
Purple word: I don't know if you understand what I'm saying, but kindness is always an option. It's also a choice if you want to be alone with your grief. Maybe it's because you don't want dependence to become a habit, and then losing someone to become your next reason to grieve again. In the long run, you are free to choose. You can come out of the darkness, you can turn the situation around and become a stronger version of yourself. I hope you can be more rational and analyse why the whole thing happened.
Big green text: human flesh is so fragile, talent or something is indeed sometimes pleasant, superficially honourable and eye-catching. If it goes well, you can even make money. But talent is only effective when it is supported by a strong concentration of the body and consciousness. As soon as a screw in the brain or a knot in the flesh snaps, the concentration disappears like the mist of dawn - a toothache or a shoulder pain, for example - and you can't play the piano properly. A tooth decay or a shoulder pain is really all it takes for a beautiful vision and sound to vanish at the drop of a hat. The human body is so fragile, and once it is damaged, it is very difficult to repair. If it is only a tooth decay foot or shoulder pain may still be cured, there are many other things that can not be cured this have to rely on the basis of the front of an inch can not see clearly unreliable talent in the end what is the meaning of it? Talent is still a very illusory thing, that perhaps few people can know, to the end, but what is born from it, sometimes can produce a huge jump in the spirit, beyond the individual to the universal, almost self-reliant phenomenon. Mozart and Schubert died young, as if they had cut their lives short, accepting that the price of premature death was theirs to pay. It's like the TD deal. Whether the deal was with God or the devil is unknown. I have been wishing to die as soon as possible since a long time ago. It's really troublesome to live, and I don't care if I die like this. Although I have not tried to find a way to actively cut off the energy of life, it is possible to accept death in silence. No one can avoid it anyway. There is no way to get a clear and proper picture of death. There is no proper language for death.
Pink text: Don't forget the past, don't forget the past, just get over it, just get over it, if you are stuck in the past then you are just a child whose soul never grows up, find the door and you can cross it, you can be happy, you don't have to force yourself to take care of and protect anyone in your family. The child who has to take responsibility for his parents' life and give up happiness is the most ungrateful child in the world because you are not taking responsibility for your own life.
Dark Blue text : Shame, powerlessness, loneliness, shame, whatever emotion I am holding, no one is my safe haven.
Dark Green text: I've been living with a hidden power but now I want to use it. Power can not lack of awareness, otherwise the mood will therefore fluctuate, the spirit will be scattered, of course, not to look at the face of others do not care, the lack of emotion blindly give can not focus on the work of all the things can not be mum sloppy. The most important thing is that you should be strict with yourself and generous with others. You have to put your own life into perspective and think about the present, not to do things that should not be done.